Okay, so I’ve been digging into this whole “sun sesquiquadrate ascendant” thing, and let me tell you, it’s been a bit of a ride. I started off, like I always do, feeling a bit clueless. I mean, “sesquiquadrate”? It sounds like some kind of weird dance move.
First, I grabbed my birth chart. No chart, no party, right? I needed to see where my Sun and Ascendant were hanging out.
Then, the hunting began. I scoured the internet, looking for anything that could explain this aspect in plain English. Most of it was full of jargon, to be honest. I mean, I like astrology, but sometimes it feels like you need a translator.
After some digging, I finally pieced together the basic idea. It’s basically about a kind of tension between your core self (that’s the Sun) and how you present yourself to the world (the Ascendant). Like, maybe you’re a total goofball inside, but you come across as super serious.
My observation
- I noticed that I sometimes feel this disconnect. Like, I’ll have these big, passionate ideas, but then I freeze up when it’s time to actually show them to people.
- I started paying attention to how I react in different situations. When do I feel most “myself”? When do I feel like I’m putting on a show?
- I jotted down some notes in my journal. Just random thoughts, feelings, observations about my day-to-day life.
It’s not like some magic switch flipped, and suddenly I understood everything. But I definitely felt more aware of this inner tension. And that’s the first step, right? Just noticing it. Acknowledging it.
It’s a work in progress, for sure. I’m still trying to figure out how to bridge that gap between my inner self and my outer presentation. Maybe it’s about finding ways to be more authentic, more vulnerable. Maybe it’s about accepting that it’s okay to be a little bit complicated. I am still working on this.
